My first entry in lifejournal after moving from xanga. I used to write a lot about my feelings, my unhappiness, the xanga I have kept for 5 years bears so much emotional burden, I am all for abandoning it and starting a new one in here Live journal, largely because there's such a huge group of JE fans here I want to be a part of them. So from now on, this blog will not be about myself, I will only post my thoughts on anything JE / entertainment related I have watched/ read, or like book reviews and stuff. I like writing, and hope to continue writing as a way to relieve stress.

Anyway, I dont know what to say in a first blog, notice that the date of this entry is 2011, my expected end date of this hard PhD life. I hope by October 2011, all my sufferings will be over, and I dont need this online stress release avenue anymore. Please wish me luck.



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This is so hilarious, everyone has to watch!!! Shingo mama! Kimutaku! All of you reminds me of why I can NEVER EVER leave the JE fandom.

Someone needs to sub this. XD.

Not Uwasa this time, and not JE related. But I love Downtown-san that's why I am posting this.

松本人志が“デキ婚”　お相手は一般女性

お笑いコンビ、ダウンタウンの松本人志（４５）が１７日、結婚したことを所属事務所を通じて発表した。お相手は一般人女性で、現在妊娠中という。

　 松本は「この度、私、松本人志は結婚を致しましたのでご報告させていただきます。お相手は一般の方になり現在妊娠中です。デリケートな時期なので、できる だけそっとしといて欲しいです。記者会見はした方がいいかと思うのですが、照れくさいのでやめておきます」とコメントしている。

　また、相方の浜田雅功（４６）は松本の結婚について、「おめでとうございます。あなたも人の親ですか。もう五反田には、行けませんね」と祝福のコメントを発表した。

　なお、結婚についての会見は予定していないという。

Tats just told me that Macchan got married yesterday to an ordinary woman! YAY! I love them for still being able to marry an ordinary woman despite being a celebrity. Apparently this is big news in Japan, I am happy for Macchan!

Thank you for giving me hope that maybe one day I can marry Kou-chan. LOL.

*skips to lab happily*
 

Shingo's apology on Tsuyoshi's behalf on Smastation



Translations: Good evening, everyone. I am Katori Shingo from SMAP.
SMAP's member, Kusanagi Tsuyoshi.... Kusanagi Tsuyoshi has caused a lot of trouble recently, and here, I apologize deeply on his behalf.
Whatever Kusanagi Tsuyoshi did this time, whether it is as a member of the society, as a member of the society, or as an adult, cannot be forgiven.
To me, besides being a member of SMAP, Kusanagi Tsuyoshi is a very important friend.
(long pause)
We spoke for a while over the phone yesterday night,
He  is deeply deeply reflecting over his actionsm and I believe his words.
I really really hope that everyone can forgive him,
and I hope that Tsuyopon can return to...return to...return to SMAP earlier.
Really, I am very sorry.

I teared up so badly over this! This is really love. You can honestly feel how worried Shingo is over this Tsuyoshi thing, and their bond has to be real. Shingo tried so hard to keep his composure.

I can only wish that I have friends who would worry like this about me in real life.

Oh, a little KY and a little out of topic, can Tsuyoshi be the A-san that Shingo has been rumored to be dating for the longest time? Haha.

A lot of questions were asked, very briefly mentioning some ( i am not going to translate everything, it feels wrong to, i just want to everyone to know Tsuyoshi's intentions):

(The front part is an apology where he apologized to the fans, to SMAP for doing something embarrassing like this, and bringing trouble to everyone. He will do a self reflection, and he is very sorry.)

Q: Do you usually drink a lot? What's your alcohol tolerance like?
T: It depends on the situation, sometimes high, sometimes low...

Q: When did you regain your consciousness ?
T: When I realize what had happened, i was already at the police station...I kept asking myself, is this a dream? Or this is real? It was all hazy.

Q: Have you met your members?
T: I have not seen them, but I have called them.  (many pauses in here. Up to now, he has been answering every single question honestly, and seriously, but once the reporters asked about the members, something seemed to break in him, and you see him tearing up here.) I called Nakai-kun, Kimura, goro-san and shingo... I said sorry to them, sorry for bringing trouble. They were concerned about my well being, the condition of my body (he was sick yesterday and was given a drip) They listened carefully to what I had to say, and said it's ok, told me to take care of my health. Everyone's very gentle with me.

Q: You had a drip infusion yesterday?
T: Yes, because I was in the same room the whole time, I got a little sick.

Q: Had you have similar drunken episodes in the past?
T: I once drank with Shingo, and when I came to, i was only wearing my underwear.

Q: Will you still drink after this?
T: I wont be drink right now again. But when I learn how to drink properly like an adult, I will do it again. (Good answer Tsuyoshi, and  a responsible answer, rather than just giving everyone an empty promise that says "I swear never to do it again, " it's better to face it like an adult, and learn how to do it the right way. I feel so touched!!)

Q: (Were you drinking because) you felt pressure?
T: No, I wasn't stressed

Q: Then when you do feel like drinking?
T: (very very long pause, you can see Tsuyoshi almost crying, this really hurts me, I am so sure he's stressed, he just can't say it because jimushou won't allow him to. I mean being an ex-heavy drinker myself, the only time I felt like I needed to drink was when i was depressed. No sane human being would want to sell their lives to alcohol like that.).... I drink because I think I like to. Usually, I like to drink after work. It makes things fun.

(Apology to fans....)

Q: What do you feel now?
T: Pain (*tears*)

Q: (Haha, this line is beyond me, I need my japanese dictionary which is at home now, but I think this is what the reporter is saying).. While you are saying that you are feeling very pained, you can also hear loud proclamations of support from the fans right?
T: I am very happy with regards to that. I will be reflecting on my actions.
Q: You are feeling pained because you are unable to meet your fans?
T: I am very grateful to everyone's support, but I really need to do some self reflections.

Q: Do you want to return to your members?
T: I would like to return immediately, but I have to do some self reflections first. As for when i can go back, this is not something that I can decide on my own. I would really love to be with the members still... (I watched this for the 10th time already, and this still makes me want to cry.)

Q: What is SMAP to you?
T: Very very important. (I remember in 2001 when the Goro had his incident, this question was asked as well, and Goro's answer was "everything".)

You can see Tsuyoshi's sincerity in this whole thing, and I maintain my stand that his drunken episodes have more to them than he claims. I hope that people who have been laughing would stop laughing. Jenn is right, what's is important, is not how this whole incident affects the image of Johnny's or the image of SMAP, but how it would hurt Tsuyoshi. Being the docile person he is, he must be taking it hard, so I hope that no matter if you are an arashi fan, or a Kattun fan, or news fan, as long as you love Johnny's, you would stop laughing and give him some support. If you would like to show your support, you can look at the post here . I would probably never write a fan letter in my  life, not even to Koichi, but this, because I empathize so much, i think I will write him one.

Ok, that's all, this is a heavy post to make really.

*PRESENTATION TIME AGAIN. >.<*

NIPPLE.

So, I decided to check XQ (chinese 2ch, but wayyyy more organized) right before I go sleep as a reward for reading 3 scientific papers today (YATTAAA for slight productivity), and guess what, there was a discussion about Koichi's accessory nipple.



That small bump under his armpit. That is it. Apparently, depending on whether there are nerve endings beneath it, one can experience certain sensations when it's touched. And of course like every other threads on xq, this one became a Koichi vs Tsuyoshi only fight  which is sooo entertaining as always. One fan (must be a tsuyoshi only) claimed that the sight of the 3rd nipple makes her goosebump-y and wants to puke. Seriously? It only makes me want to... *censored*

WAH... I LOVE YOU...XQ! SO EDUCATIONAL.

1. Yamapi's Birthday celebration (for Geraldine! ♥)

Source: FLASH magazine

( the akanishi troop )


2.

 

The top says Ninomiya Kazunari and Nagazawa Masami's 5 years of love is going well...
Erh... so it's been 5 years since the rumor started???

昨日の夜、恵比寿ガー

デンプレイス近くのマックにジャニーズ嵐の二宮和也くんと長澤まさみちゃんが２人きりで
テーブルに座って食事していました。 思わず自分と友人は携

帯カメラで撮影しちゃいました。。。（不謹慎ですみません）
この２人は別れたか噂だっただけだったはずでしたよね？
詳しいこと知ってる方いらしたら教えてください！

Apparently, the rumor started because someone spotted them having dinner together at 恵比寿, the rumor became so huge that Nino had to deny it in an Arashi concert because innocent members of Arashi had been dragged into it (oh my god, i need to go do more research on this). Despite repeatedly denying it, gossip magazines are still picking it up, and this issue josei has it right on top, maybe they have new details. Hopefully a picture. I love picturesss!!! XDXD

URGGGGHHH. POSTING BRAINLESS RUMORS IS MY ONLY WAY OF ESCAPING FROM THE HARSHNESS OF REAL LIFE AND WORK. SO HUMOR ME MY DEAR FLIST.

This is NOT a full concert report. fluffy87  has a good compilation that she is going to post about she wakes up. I am just going to talk about a small part.

So today, Tsuyoshi told us about his pet rearing experience,

In the past, I had a pet. He had a terminal disease. The doctor told me "he cannot be cured, so while he's alive, please show him as much love as you can." When I asked how long he had left., the doctor said "about a month maybe." Of course, it's painful and sad, but I told myself, if I wasn't able to accept this pain and this sadness, then I would lose the right to love this child (the pet), and also I wont able to become the love of this child. So, I said: Ok! Let's face this positively.  Then... maa... animals aren't about to talk right? But I would definitely do my best, while you are still alive, I would do my best to love you, to be by your side always. And he always looked at me as if he understands what I was telling him, like "I understand, even though I am unable to talk." He looked at me with eyes that seemed to say "Yes!" Anyway, because I was very worried about him, I was unable to sleep, so I was always sleeping with him in the living room, no matter what, we had to be together. In the end, he left suddenly.
So it's like this, life is decided in an instance, what I learned from my pet leaving me, is that if you have things to say, please do say them well.  Like your emotions and what you feel, please do let them interwine. (nicole: and then a whole bunch of things that didn't make sense to me, so skippp, sorry).  But anyway, if you need to say anything, please say it. In this way, you would not regret. Afterall, we are alive now, we are currently living, and only NOW we are living. If we think of it this way, then please speak your mind, express our emotions. I believe everyone can do it. I hope that every can face your love one frankly, send your love and spend quality time with them. Hmm.. I am sorry, this is becoming long. I have said this before just now, it's just many things in my heart, and when I think about them, I write them into songs. Let us listen to some music next. The next song, please just sit and listen, that would do....

And.. Tsuyoshi sang... 〔綴る」「歴史」

.. During the encore part, the audiences sang him a Birthday song, and when he came out to thank everyone, he spoke more about the pet.

Without doubt, a person's growth is an important process, and a beautiful thing. Just now, I talked a little bit about my pet. That child, even though the doctor said he only had  a month left to live, in the end, he lived for 8 months. But, still within a year, he left me. ...hmmm.. how should I put this? It's really a very sad thing, but after all, he has been by my side for a long time. This is already an awesome thing, I keep telling myself this.

(Source: A variety of Chinese / Japanese blogs. Note: This is not an exact transcript obviously, but just a brief version of what he said.)

So, the speculations online in both the Japanese world and Chinese fandom is that, the pet he mentioned is Kenshiro, because Tsuyoshi mentioned DOG (犬), and apparently, the only dog he has had for a long time is Kenshiro. Afterall, Kenshiro is also an old dog, so it kind of makes sense. But it breaks my heart, because I keep thinking about how lonely Tsuyoshi must be feeling right now if really Kenshiro is gone. According to the fan reports, he seemed to have accepted it pretty well, and besides during the song [purple stage] where he sang back facing the audience (so everyone thinks he's crying), he seemed to be in a pretty good mood.

I will miss Kenshiro too if it's real, because I am sure he's special to Kou-chan as well.

( PG13 image... LOL )
THIS!!! Honestly, SEXY DOES NOT EQUATE TO EXPLICIT. :X

And to think I was gonna post this last night,

and whine about how cute I find this. LOL.